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| So its Thanksgiving today, and i am home alone. lol My parents are in L.A. with the family still dealing with my cousins death. It sucks. My brother called me today at 5 in the morning and i told him the news. He started to trip out, he even started crying. I have not heard him cry in forever. I miss my brother so much! He told me that he heard that his company might be deployed to Afghanistan. I hope its not true. He also told me that he might be coming back home in March. I hope it true. I am so Thankful to the Lord that he has kept my brother safe. I am so thankful that he has watched over him and my entire family. It's so insane that everything changes as one grows up. I am finally getting out of community college. I have decided to go to CSUDH. I want to go there bc it is a small school and i will probably know no one lol. Right now i am trying to type up an 8 page paper that is due on monday. ahhhhhh..... i have two more weeks of school and im out. finally. I have so much studying and catching up to do. I messed around during the semester. =( ah..... So ive been hooking with this boy i met at school.... no good..... ah i hate it how i get myself into shit and then later on i complain about. | | |
| I go months with out writing in this thing lol. Well right now i am at school lol waiting for my class to begin hahaha. Ah so i think last time i wrote in here was like last year. !!! Well lots of things have happen hahaha. I'm now attending SAC full time. lol and this fall semester will be my last one. I will be applying for CSUF in a few weeks. FINALLY!! I've taken way to long to get out of here. Oh so my parents caught me drinking again. This time it was not as bad as the previous two times. I am now 21 lol and i really don't drink as much anymore. Turning 21 took away the thrill of drinking. I am still working at Dr. Habashy's and have decided to double major. Well that is what i want, but we will see what God was in store for me. I will be transfering out as a Political Science Major. hahaha I'll probably still live with the parents. haha. Its not that bad except that i still have the 10 pm curfew. Oh yeah my brother is in the Army. I do not know what he was thinking!! He left in January. He came down for memorial weekend and now he is going to come down here in a couple of days. He is not sure how long he will be staying here. It might be two weeks or a month. Afterwards he is off to Korea for an entire year. =( I miss my brother. Me and him were tiighhht! its hard to talk to him now. Well other than that everything has pretty much stayed the same... lol Life is not bad at all now except for the fact that i am broke as @#$^!! The Dr. has not paid me two months!!! So my next pay check will be pretty sweet. lol Right now my parents have been paying for gas! GAS PRICES ARE RIDICULOUS!! when i first had my montero i would fill up the tank with like 40 bucks and now its over $70!!!! its insane!!! but yea.... oh well it is what it is... | | |
| WOW! Its been a loooooooooong tims since i wrote in here... LOL well Its almost Nov. Dang time flies by...... This year is almost over. Well right now i am still going to school. lol And i am working everyday. Mon through Friday. yuppers and i am trying to become more involve with church. I joined pathfinders again lol and i am going to be the secreatry for the youth this upcoming year. Right now i try to help cindy out as much as possible with the programs and what not. Im trying to keep myself busy and trying to get away from things that do me no good =] and i think i am doing a pretty good job at it. It sucks though cause i constantly have ppl inviting me to go out and about and when i tell them NO, they start telling me stuff.... w/e i really dont care what others think about me. Im content with life right now. | | |
| well lets see once again i got caught!!! my parents found out that i was drinking and all that other stuff. I mean it was only obvious. I was getting home like at three in the morning and stuff!! shit. o well i am glad that i got caught. i was drinking like every other day for the past two weeks. and i started drinking like two months ago. this past weekend was my first sober weekend in like two months i think. yea. well it sucks now bc i got my car taken away for a month and i have a curfew of like ten. i cant really blame my parents, but i think they are being a lil too harsh. oscar moved out bc he did not want to deal with my parents. i have to stay if i want my car!! Im depending on nigga all the time for rides and stuff. it sucks not having a car! i cant even go to the gym!! =[ and i cant do my other stuff. ah things are really harsh for me right now, but i have to deal with it. after all i was the one who got myself into this mess. Im taking two summer courses and i have work every day! and i have no car. Im in debt. i have to pay my phone, the gym and ah... its so intense!! i lost my parents trust and i have ppl at church looking at me like im the worst person ever. ah w/e this too shall pass.... like my mom told me last night, " you tripped and fell, now get up and dont fall again." | | |
| So yea school be almost done in a month. =] =\
so yea i think i am in love wit this certain individual hahaha
i crack my self up!!! yea i see him at school and at the .....
lol o man i think he is so beautiful!! the only problem be that
i dont talk to him.
Gosh i am such a pussy when it comes to this stuff.... I really am.
So i have been crushing on this individual for over a month now.
and i still have not done shit. the one time i was determine to talk
to him he was not there... so yea.....
We'll see what happens...... If anything happen... =[ | | |
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